I'm so confused

So you guys know how I said how I like my crush and everything and I was kinda afraid that he was just a jerk that I was following mean while there's another sweet guy following me which is the one I should be giving all my attention too, yeah well I guess I was kinda right in a way. Now there's this other guy who's actually in a higher grade then I am his a 9th graders I'm a 8th grader not really a big difference & I'm actually suppose to be in the 9th grade but I failed a grade, no biggy I learned from my mistake's. Anyways the guys its actually pretty cute, and always looks & stares at me when he see's me I'm not sure if he likes me, he seems kinda shy, but his supper cute & I guess I'm kinda starting to grow some feelings for him, seriously I've been thinking about him so much lately that I'm going crazy, my friends have notice that someone I always end up talking about him. It kinda weird when you've been liking someone for so long and then someone just comes in the picture you know, I'm also very shy kinda like he is, so its pretty hard for me to make a move, but his just supper cute & I see him catching my eye a lot I seriously can't stop thinking about him :) could it mean I'm giving on everything that I've gone through with a guy I've known for so long and liked for so long, or is it just an attraction ?

My Wondering Thoughts

I'm so lost about me and him ?
I don't understand our "Love Life," "RelationShip," What ever you wanna call it.
His friend is always staring at me and creeping on me like I have something to hide -_-
His other friend, is being all mean with me all of the suden !
And then him and my other friend which now I hate, and don't even wanna talk to are acting weird around me.
Like the other time he was looking at me and my friend (The one a I hate now, who is a boy) followed his track at who he was looking at, looked at me and smiled.
I'm just like wtf is going on ? Does he like me ? Does he know something and is not telling me, I'm so confused !
And then the other time in gym they were both looking at me and point at me, like uhh you making it pretty obvious that you're talking about me you idiot !
And then today I had a fight with my friend the one that smiled at me that I said before, and in between the fight he tells me that thats why the guy I like dont like me, thats so mean, like what do you know?
And now it has me wondering does he like me ?
Why would he say that ?
I'm so lost and confused ? I just don't know what to do !

Is this the story of me & my crush ? 

(Please let its not be)   

You make me smile .

I haven't talk to my crush in a while its hard being in holiday vacation without seeing him. I know what you may be thinking your crush, umm does he even like you ? I think he does I dont really know we kinda have an attraction for each other pretty much. So here the quote for the day . That describe pretty much how even when I'm mad at him he makes me smile, I'm usually like no I'm mad at you and his like really, look into my eyes and I bet I could make you smile and then right there I just laugh, and his laugh I dont know its really funny but I find it cute. Okay, so here the quote for today.

Why are you so complicated!

At this point I dont understand him any more his just so complicated, I just don't understand him. Today he didn't even look at me much. The only time he looked at me was in lunch, I'm just so confused and my friend showed me something a conversation about him and her cousin which I didn't used to like and he was being to mean and laughing at everything she was saying and making fun of me. At this point I just think he doesn't deserve me and his very complicated and I'm just so confused about how he acts even though that conversation was a while ago. I don't know if I'm being stupid about this, but I just don't know his so difficult and complicated to understand well lets see how Tuesday goes wish me luckk <3 :)

Way Better Than Before ♥ ;]]

Things are taking its form way better than they were before "LOVE IS IN THE AIR" my friends keep saying I'm going to end up with my crush since me and him have so much history. But I just don't wanna get my hopes up for then to be let down and find out that he doesn't like me. Also I'm broken hearted because he may end up in another high school then me, and I'm just devastated what if he just wants me for this year since his going not going to stay so its not going to matter, what if he doesn't end up in the same high school as me .. so many worries that are just driving me nuts. But at least things between us are way better than they were before. Last time I was walking home with him and 2 of my friends witch were guys and I was pretty much the only girl. And this girl came up to me and asked me something, and he was like defending me his like "THATS MY GIRL" "YOU DONT MESS WITH MY GIRL" I was just head over heals <3 I cant believe it his just so cute! Okay, It may seem like I'm obsessing over him a little WHICH I'M TOTALLY NOT! Okay maybe a little but were just so good together. Well at least that what my friends say. So after one of his friends left it was just me, him and my friend that was walking me home. We walked all the way to my building and had a nice funny conversation his just hilarious, well at least to me. Then when we got to the front of my building I decided to walk them at least to the corner. Me and him are just both so good together, there was this puddle of water in-front of us and me and him were trying to push our friend into it put we were just playing around though. Then our other friend was way in the corner and were like a couple inches away from him standing right next to each other. I was like I'm not leaving with out giving you a hug, and it seem like he was too. That was on thursday that was one of the best Thursdays of my life <3 Lolss. Then today we had a school trip and since were in the same school and grade, but not in the same class though. We had a trip today and like the whole time we were there, he was looking at me a stuff so cutee... Okaay maybe I am obsessing ... anyways then when I got home, he got online a couple of minutes later and I was super excited, but I was also really tired, then after that he got offline and I don't know when he got back online or at what time cause I fell as sleep, then woke up and checked my facebook and realized he had send me a message asking me what was my ID for our video chat thing so this is pretty much how the convo. went ...


Him: Whats your _Video Chat_ ID? (6:11PM)
Me: Wait one sec, _Video Chat ID_ (6:19PM)
Him: Add
Me: YAY!


then it was a really nice,sweet,interesting, convo. even though our friends were there we were still acting like we always do when were around each other it was an amazing freaking day I hope he get s on the video chat thing tomorrow also, I could literacy talk to him for hours and not get bored :)
-- THE END  ♥ ;]]

Confusion Of Lovee ♥

I'm so confused okaay so here's the big story, yesterday I posted - "I need your loving feel, just stay right by my side, just you && I ♥ ;* " as my statues, but after my crush got offline because I didn't want him to see it because of reasons like, it about him, and also because it has to do with this song he send me ones is kinda a long story. So today in school, when his class was coming out of the class room he looked mad but still looked at me in the eyes, so I just figured that he was mad at me so I stopped looking at him, then after my class went in his class was still in the hall way and I looked over there and he looked at me then I looked a second time and his friend notice me and smile and told him something, now I'm all scared also in lunch he was coming because he had lunch detention so he needed to get his lunch, then when he was coming he was next to this girl then he looked at me and went the other way to the direction I was. Also today I got detention, and he had detention also, and I was right next to him, and he looked at me but I didn't look back, and we were walking down the stairs together. And I'm pretty sure his talking about me with his friends some times. I don't know if its true but it kinda seems like it, I'm so confused if he likes me yes or no because we used to be very closed. So close people used to think we were going out, I'm so confused about what we are, sometimes I think were just friends, sometimes I think were less then that, sometimes I just think we have something I don't know at this time ♥.