It’s Complicated.

I don't know what to do any more at this moment, today I guess I kinda ignored my crush but, that doesn't mean he needs to be all mean with me like I didn't do anything, when he class was coming out the classroom I looked at him and shot him a smile, and he started acting shy and looked away. Then last period I saw him and I put my head down as in I was shy not that I wasn't interesting in him. But then in lunch I said hi to me and he just ignored me. Why are we so complicated, then he told my friend he was gonna get on the video chat thing and didn't then when I asked him if he forgot his password he didn't even reply, then minutes later he got offline, then never got back on again. I'm I over reacting, is our "loveee" complicated, or is it my fault for kinda ignoring him! I'm just so confuced </3 ! 

I Just need to give him a chance ♥

Things are going way better between me and and my crush but today we were lined up in the hall way to go into class and he told me wassup and I'm just so shy and everything I didn't say anything back. Then after school he wouldn't even look at me. My friend keeps telling me to stop being so mean and give him a chance but I'm just scared. I dont wanna be heartbroken again. Even though he only broke my heart ones in 6 grade but should I really give him a chance or is everything going to end up bad at the end ? But at the end I actually am realizing that I really do need to give him a chance ♥.  Lets hope things go better tomorrow : /

Is it mean to be ♥

Well me and my crush had a short argument ... Well I think it was an argument
anyways my friend was on my Facebook and she hit him up saying
"hey its me ____"  (even though I told her not 2) so I wrote
"Really ____" and then I put the mad face like this -> -_-
&& he wrote back saying
"WHAT THE FUCK"
and I was like
"It was ____ that hit you up even though I told her not 2" I think that sounded kinda mean like what if he has feelings for me and that just made him feel bad ? anyways he wrote back saying
"okaay what ever then" like he was mad at me cuss I told my friend not to hit him up, after a while was that I actually really though about it maybe he likes me and that made him feel bad anyways after that I responded with ....
"Okaay W.e then" and I think that what I said got him so mad that he replied saying
"Okaay so stop talking then"
and then my friend wrote
"Yoo what the hell you mahh mean" and then I got mad  and wrote
"Don't f**king start with me aight" Which sounded kinda mean at the end cuss he didn't reply and it also sounded "GETTO"


But then the day after that, he was trying to catch my eyes, he actually went into my class to supposedly get a book, and I didn't even notice when he walked in but when he was leaving I did notice and me and him have kinda this eye to eye thing yeah its pretty cute anyways the point is he was catching my eye, but I looked away right away and kinda rolled my eyes at him, and then when I looked back to see if he had already left, but NO! he stayed there for an answer to why I did that and he did a motion like "WHAT DID I DO!" and I was just like tell you later cuss I couldn't get out get out of the class room to talk to him so he just went back to class. Then after that when we were leaving he was right next to me and he made a funny motion like a girl with attitude, Then the day after that he was looking all over for me. In lunch he was catching my eye when he was lining up to go to class. And in line. EVERY WHERE! Now it looks like his trying to get my attention ...
BUT ... is it meant to be? my friend told me today that his does attitude to me sometimes but if she see's how it is when its just me and him his so sweet and down to earth and the real him! Also, people keep telling me that we make a cute couple and some think his my boyfriend ! But the thing is are we meant to be together, is it love? I don't know I just don't know at this point!

Defining The Relation Ship

In my school I'm not pretty much as I could say invisible but everyone thinks they could just put me down and get away with it. This new year of 8th grade is going to be another worst year of my life. There are many many reasons for that. For example, I'm not in a class with my crush so I cant really DTR "Define The Relation Ship" between us is going to be difficult when were not in the same class, and I wont be able to talk to him. I'm not even in a class with my friends I'm with some hoe ass bitches that I don't even like put there all pussy shit so I could pretty much take them! Its still pretty annoying hows everything changing and not being able to do anything about. Me and my crush don't even talk any more my friends say there's something going on in between us two but how am I suppose to find out if were not even in the same class together. But should I even DTR I mean people always tell me his such a jerk, but that time I've gotten to spend with him it shows the sweet down to earth real guy he is, so I'm pretty much in between two walls. The wall of what other people think and the wall to what my heart thinks I just don't want to be that Invisible girl any more I wanna be, be, me!